During my 24 hour solo out at the Ojai Foundation, I watched a blue bellied lizard for many hours. Here’s a reflection I wrote about it on June 19, 2011:
I watched a tail-less lizard today for quite a while and he watched me back. He stood on the underside of a tree limb and we just stared at each other. I asked him to teach me how to trust..to trust standing in a place that’s underneath, to TRUST that my tail will grow back. He said okay but he told me he was also learning from me and that’s why he was watching. He was learning how to live without a tail. And I didn’t even get performance anxiety! I said “Oh! Okay. Here I am. Thanks for teaching me how to teach by just being me.” And then we watched each other breathing. He glistened in a few places when he breathed (and had a streak of blue on his undercarriage). I wonder what he learned from my breathing?
I’ve been thinking about this lizard a lot in the past few days.